Friday, July 10, 2015

This won't be easy

Learning to be that bad ass that is deep inside of all of us. For as long as I can remember I’ve always be the one to hide in the back ground. I never was the girl who jump in the front of the line, or wanted to be noticed. Well I wanted to be noticed, but I was afraid of being noticed for the wrong reason. I was overweight, I felt ugly and ashamed. I didn’t have everything that everyone seem to have. I felt like I was the outsider of the whole. I felt like I didn’t belong.

Now though years later I’m slowly learning that I the long run I really do belong in this place and all my flaws and faults really are just things that make me who I am. My flaws and faults of just things that make me the bad ass that I know I’m meant to be in life. I’m meant to find my own path in this world. I’m not meant to live the normal life. I’ve never been normal, and nor do I really every want to be normal. Nope I want to be more. I want to learn to embrace everything that in the past I hated about myself. I want to learn how to own my life. How to take control of it and truly how who I am supposed to be.

This is going to be a journey that is going to take my many difference place. Not is not only a fitness journey, but I journey of emotional growth along with the physically growth as well. I hope that in sharing my journey that I not only change my life, but my hopes is that my story can change one person life as well.


That is all I want in this life is to know that while I found who I truly am that I helped one person who is as lost as am I. That I helped that one person know that you can change your life no matter what and that I can happen. This journey isn’t going to be easy. There going to be days I want to give up, but I’m hoping that by making this public that I will find the support I need/wanted to keep this journey alive.